My Thoughts That Bind

Ugh!!! I went and has sushi (not in itself a horrible choice.) But we also had these delicious sweet potato fries. I pretend that they are healthy because they are sweet potatoes but they are fried so they really aren't. It hit with a clang.
I know I have probably only gained a few pounds this past month but I'm really starting not to like it. Not feeling like I can work out very hard is frustrating. I know I have lost muscle mass and it's bothering me. I really need to get back into the gym and lift. I'm still worried about hurting myself but I think I need to get over it. Just go for it ya know.
I wish I had someone or something pushing me. I know that being fit and feeling good in a 2-piece should be enough. But as everyone knows, that's not the case. I really liked working with a trainer because someone was holding me accountable and taking measurements every two weeks. However, that is not an option at this point because of finances. I think that Crossfit would be a good choice but that isn't cheap either, but it's cheaper than personal training. I also think that I can do it myself. I have all the tools necessary to do so I just need the internal motivation. Argh! Hopefully I can shake this workout funk off and get back to it!

On a happy note, I made an awesome dinner tonight. Chicken Bruschetta. I used my own basil from our garden. It was delicious. I also had a salad with lettuce from our garden and some grilled corn on the cob. yum!!!


So at least the day ended on a high note. I'm all packed to go on our anniversary trip to Walla Walla tomorrow. I'm excited to go wine tasting and enjoy some really awesome food. We have 2 bakeries scoped out and a place that has cold cuts and cheese. I've also got some super cute outfits to wear. I'm going to revel in the fact that I am skinner than I was in high school and that there are a bunch of new clothes that now look great on me. (I'm most excited about my new wedge sandals.) I feel sexy and I'm loving my legs and arms.

I think that being confident is half the battle. So I'm going to own my body and know that there are plenty of women out there that would love to have it. Even with the things I believe to be flaws. It' s all relative.